what we think we become

I started this piece 1 1/2 years ago but neglected to have it photographed until this week. Seeing it through the photographer’s eye, it has an additional layer of meaning in 8/2020.

Originally it was a maquette for a memorial piece. We ended up going a different path for the memoriam. Personally I was happy this piece emerged from the event and cast it in bronze. It resonates with me because years ago I became fascinated, completely sucked in by modern neurology. Neurology was my obsession. I read everything a Mom could get her hands on. My favorite was Phantoms in the Brain by V. S. Ramachandran. The brain is amazing and especially since neurologists have learned that it is plastic and is changed with everything you do, everything you tell yourself or others tell you changes your brain. This knowledge is what gives every human a chance for hope. Dreaming is the first step, and self-talk is hugely important. You can control how you see the world, and how you see yourself, “fake it until you make it works“. What you think you will become”.

The additional layer - living through a pandemic is choosing how one reacts to stressful and depressing situations. Humans choose how we react and how we see. “what you think you will become”. The texture of the piece is composed of repetitive arched lines, they are mirrored in the profiles/contours of the work. It is an abstract sculpture but I clearly read “what we think we become”. What we look for we will find, 8/2020 is a good time to control your thoughts and look for the light. If you look for it you will find it.

“what you think you become”

bronze

12” X 4” X 3”

Working style philosophy

Range by David Epstein - in my mind is a must-read for any artist, creative writer, inventor, scientist moms or anyone who solves problems.

https://pepperdine-graphic.com/book-review-lessons-for-higher-education-in-david-epsteins-range/

”Everyone needs habits of mind that dance across disciplines.”
- D. Epstein

“Habits of mind that dance across disciplines-“ - D. Epstein

I love that quote; it sums up how I think and supports how I am driven to work. Several times during studio visits with people that are in the art world and that I have tremendous respect for, they advised me that I should focus on one thing, one media to work in, or one subject. It helps in branding. It also allows for intense and thorough investigations in an area. It is a smart way to go. I understand what they are saying. It is a lot easier to market art made out of one media or maybe two different medias. It allows you to be recognized by the work.

If I were 20 years old and created art for financial gain- to eat and pay my rent, I would 100% take the advice. Since I am 63 years old and after years of working long hours (not in a visual field), I now have the luxury of knowing where my next meal is coming. Branding is smart, but it is not what interests me about making art. The creativity, the making of, and the message of are what inspire me. The freedom to be creative and not have to worry about the marketability, durability, or popularity of size, material and color allows me to do work that is important to me, with materials that speak to the issues that keep me up at night or move me. It is a luxury not to have financial pressures. Having this luxury, I feel responsible for using the freedom I am afforded to do work that will help create a better world. It does not mean I can’t have fun with it. I love making and feeling passionate.

I have many interests, and I try to be open to new ideas. I believe creativity comes with exposure to life’s experiences, both good and bad, and life’s failures. I often try to break the rules set out by those who came before me regarding creating, and looking for new ways to find my voice. It comes from the willingness to try new things, ”to grasp further than my reach.” -Browning?

Every new idea I have, I first think if it should be expressed 2D or 3D or both. I have to consider the problems that will arise. I have to look far enough to solve the next problem, but not so far ahead that it is daunting. That is a fine line. Reading Range confirmed my beliefs and uncovered even more justifications for staying focused on my path of diversity. . There are connections in my creative wanderings, they are not as visible as using one media or one subject, but they are there for those that take the time to look and think. Good or bad, this is how I need to create. Maybe someday, but for now, I do not want to shift my mindset. I want to keep expanding my visual and sculptural vocabulary. I want to look for ways to interleave my work, create more mental schemes, broaden my thinking, think outside my experiences.

I am naive enough to hope that one-day, art historians, and or critics will see the connections in my work and maybe be glad I didn’t do one thing. Until then I have to figure out where to keep all this work.

My studio July 2020

I took time this weekend to photograph my studio- just for the memories. I never dreamed I would have an art studio.

One of the ppleasures of having a studio, Is it provides a space to meet with other artists, friends, and art lover acquaintances and get their reactions to my work? Everyone perceives art differently, and it is incredibly beneficial to get feedback from a variety of folks.

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Another day of building the bone structure of the face. The armature is more detailed than the sculpture will be. As I work I remind myself that the armature just needs to support the masses of dried mud and dried grass. It will not be visible under the herbaceous skin. I can’t seem to stop myself. I think it make me feel closer, more connect to the bison.

It also keeps me away from the news- COVID 19.

Today I worked on the lower part of it's cheekbones and then I added a rear jawbone.

Looking up the mouth and nose of head minus the lower jaw.

The old guys face left side

Looking through the skull

The right profile.

On the Road to Roam

January 19, 2020

We are on the road to Roam, and I am feeling a little concerned. I believe that we as a society are not connected to the raising/producing, culling, and processing of our food. With this disconnect, what is essential has been lost. This not only impacts our health but also our environment (including the bees) that we are borrowing from future generations. It is easy to be judgmental and to point fingers. If I am going to judge our current food production system, I need to experience the process that I believe is a healthy and responsible alternative. I need to be willing not only to talk the talk but walk the walk. Thursday, Curtis, and worked Roam’s Bison Roundup. We were nicknamed the gatekeepers. One female, after careful and thoughtful analysis, was selected to be culled today. This is not going to be easy, but I will be a better human from the experience......... on the road to Roam.

Opening the car door the last thing I hear on the radio is, ”everything is dust in the wind, ” for one second I find comfort in these words.

The ranch Anatolian livestock guard dogs greet us at the ranch entrance.

The herd including the cow to be culled having a relaxing morning grazing on Texas prairie grasses. The cow in question will not be separated from the herd, she will not be stressed and will not feel any pain. This is how you humanely harvest an animal. This is not how industrial Agriculture harvests meat.

That explained it is a heavy feeling knowing that a life is being sacrificed. Being aware of what is being lost in order to put a high quality protein on the table makes every ounce of meat more valuable. Nothing should be wasted. The experience changes how we value animal protein.

I participated for two reasons; personal growth through awareness and a deeper knowledge for a body of work whose concept I am working on called Giving the Bird.

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I started the lower jaw today. I spent the majority of the day researching the structure of the lower jaw and its movement as the bison chew.

Here is a collection of my reference material.

Bison grab a tuft of grass with their tongue, then they pinch it off by pressing it between their tongue and their front lower teeth. They do not have top front teeth. They then swallow it whole. That is the beginning of a 24-hour digestive process.

I love this image, I took it last January at Roam Ranch right before the roundup. I think this is the one they call Poppy. Poppy is very curious and friendly. She is checking me out as she catches rain drops on her tongue.

You can see the lower jaw through the upper jaw here. It is slightly off to the right of the bison. I want him chewing away and want to exaggerate the movement. I will probably bend it a little more askew this weekend.

Here the chewing lower jaw is more obvious.

View from the rear or top down.

Friday, I am committing to writing the Lawndale proposal- rewriting and rewriting and rewriting.

Faux bois Wedding gift ❤️❤️#17

I needed to make some new concrete sculpting tools. I cut the bristles from a dog brush and glued them to the handle from a sponge 🤞

The small bronze root left a stain on the seat. Oops. I expect I can grind it out.

Work work work

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I am getting close to finishing the head and upper jaw. The next step will be to create the lower jaw, then I will put the head aside and start building up the piece from the hooves.

More work on the cheekbones and connecting the horns to the eyes.

Side view of armature

Bottom side view

Bison's left side view

Back of head looking down

For the full story see Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus #1a

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View l from the mouth

The cheekbones are added.

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My favorite measuring tool when building the armature is a sewing tape measure.

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Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #11 head

The head is a lot of detail work. Bending small pieces of steel takes time and strength. It is easy to bend large pieces of steel because I can use leverage to bend it. Small parts are too short To get much lecerage. This is the first time in my life strength is an issue., I have not been doing my regular weight lifting due to COVID 19 quarantine. So I have to think of creative ways to make the shapes I need. It takes longer to figure out.

Examining this work I have decided I need to raise the left horn.

I have only welded the horn in one location. This will make it easier to correctly position the horn once the head is connected to the body. I can find them if I want, or I can cut the one weld and resend them in the correct position.

I moved the horn and added the front of the upper jaw.

I added the back of the upper jaw and two pieces to stabilize the head. The stabilizing pieces run through the center of the head, the length of the face to the back If the skull. I used the angle grinder to separate the front and left sides of the front jaw separating the two stabilizing pieces. This will make it easier to make any adjustments in the head structure when it is finished and attached to the body.

The skin and coat of the finished piece is the most crucial part if this piece. This steel armature is purely structural.

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Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #10 head

I have cut the steel for two sets of horns, the center of the face, top of the scull and part of the nisee. .

Working on the horns

This bison skull was a Christmas present. From Griffin and Alex my son and daughter in law. They have been unbelievably supportive of my environmental works. They are the best. The skull is proving extremely helpful in figuring out how to build the head armature.

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Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #4 reference images.

When I start to build a new piece the first thing I do is gather and organize all the reference images and information I am going to need.

I staple all the images to a piece of cardboard. This way it us easy to see as I work. This secti n focuses on the hoofs. I am starting with the hoofs.

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Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #8 Hooves

One of the most critical problems to solve is the placement of the hooves. They will be welded to Steel plates that act as the base. The base serves several purposes; it will make it easier to transport the piece without damaging it, it will make working on a large piece safer and less likely to fall on me. I am going to use 4 - 14” X 14” 1/4” steele plates. One for each hoove. This will give me the flexibility to adjust the placement of the hooves as the piece develops.

I am sending the hooves to Blumenthal metal and having them weld the hooves to the plates. It is tricky welding to a thin plate and not warping the plate.

Why is this important to me? Please see Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus

Lawndale Art Center - support image

It does not stand to reason that gardens or yards in Texas, Maryland, California, Iowa, and Illinois should all be landscaped with the same selection of plants. The below image from Native Texas Gardens says it all. In a country with great diversity from coast to coast, shouldn’t the sculpture garden landscapes be embedded in plants that define the place?

It will be more interesting to see sculptures in gardens of indigenous plants, plants that define the place, terrains that have attracted its people and impacted its economy. A sculpture of a boat marooned in a desert landscape might imply global warming and the same wooden vessel docked in a sea of woody pines congers up thoughts of concervation. one thing the same boat Sculpture changes across geography. What does sculpture look like in a coastal prairie sculpture garden?

Page xviv of Native Texas Gardens, maximum beauty, minimum upkeep by Sally and Andy Wasowski.

Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #6 Hooves

I am spending a lot of time looking at and thinking about the bison's hoof. Bison are ungulates. Their two toed hooves are a cross between a spade and two chisels. With the weight of their massive bodies their hooves cut into the soil, churn it up, break clumps, and create pockets that hold moisture. They trample old vegetation into the ground a long with the 40 lbs of waste they create everyday. They have a two pronged tools on each leg that tills and cultivates 24/7. And then you put them in a herd and they are mother nature's industrial farmer.

Image from bob the bison used at epic food conferences

Image from under the shoot at the roundup

Image from the harvest

the back story Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus

Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #5 the welding begins

I am starting to design and build the armature (the support structure) of the piece. The structure will be supported with welded rebar and then covered in a steel lath to help hold the mud and dried native plants to the sculpture.

I begin with the hooves It takes a lot of muscle to bend a piece of rebar enough to make a complete hoof side, I will have to piece it.

I did not measure the circumference of a hoof but I do know the ankle is 12” and hoofs are bigger.

I think best in wire or a material I can shape by hand - by feel. I decided to wrestle up a wire sketch of a hoof to get me started.

The front part of a front hoof

Front hooves started

Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #3 Collecting raw materials

I reached out to the Houston Arboretum describing my project and my need for native plants. They responded immediately. They are steadily cutting plants out and I made a big haul today. My studio floor is covered in drying plants. I am drying these on my patio. Curtis suggested every morning I flip them, so rodents don't decide to nest in them. I love all animals but I am not a fan of rodents nesting around my house. They offered me to raid their compost bend as I need. :)

Lawndale- dream opportunity

I have shared ideas regarding environmental land art concepts with Stephanie over the past few years, and this spring Lawndale Art Center decided to allow me to see what I can do. After some time thinking about what the work should be, I verbally made a proposal recapped in the letter below. I am pumped about his opportunity, the Lawndale sculpture garden feels like a traditional front yard in anywhere USA. The sculpture garden is lovely, but this is the Coastal Prairie, and Coastal Prairie landscapes offer many environmental benefits. I am addressing many of them in Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus. This Lawndale piece will provide an example of a native plant landscaped area of the same scale as their yard. People need a project they can mimic. They can see native landscaping at the Arboretum, Katy Prairie Conservancy, and Buffalo Bayou. Those sites are enormous tracts of land, and most people can not visualize those landscapes in front of their homes. The Lawndale Sculpture Garden will be instrumental in communicating what a reimagined urban native landscape can be. It will inspire change.

Emily, Stephanie, and Will,

First, I want to introduce you to Will Isbell and thank you for meeting with me regarding the Lawndale Sculpture Garden, again. Now that I have had time to think about the space in the greater picture, I am proposing that Will Isbell, work with me to create a plan that will reimagine the Lawndale Sculpture garden as a work of living land art. Will is an artist, past President of the Harris County Master Gardeners Association, oversees the Family Garden at McGovern Centennial Gardens and makes educational videos for Herman park and works at Sicardi Gallery. I have pasted for your enjoyment a link to an Educational video Cooking From Your Garden that Will created a few weeks ago. Will's knowledge, credentials, and experience as a sculptor and gallerist at Sicardi Gallery will be extremely valuable to the project from conception to funding. 

Will and I had initial discussions regarding the space last Friday evening, and we are like-minded regarding our landscape philosophies and vision for Lawndale's Sculpture Garden. As artists, we see our involvement as sculptors of a living piece of land art and environmental art activist. The long-term goal of our land art will be to take the garden from it's beautiful traditional landscaped state to a holistic living sculpture garden that works with the Coastal Prairie native landscape and, at the same time, showcases Lawndales sculpture exhibits. The living land art will be educational, functional as an exhibition space, and an environmentally healthy ecosystem/habitat. It will be groundbreaking in the art community to have a sculpture garden that showcases work in an ecologically conscious native landscape and will save Lawndale future dollars. 

The first step is to get Will and I the landscape and irrigation plans and a key to the outdoor garden closet. Will and I will then do the research to reimagine the space and give you a conceptual proposal. If you are on board with our vision, we can then work with you on creating a site plan, securing funding, installation/timing plan, and estimate the volunteers needed. We are aware that this may be a long term staged project but are hopeful that it can be realized in the short term.  

I am also looking forward to creating a piece that addresses the connection between humans, the natural world, and landscapes. Emily and I discussed that we should discuss the details of this future piece after my Sculpture Month Houston opening on October 10th. I would like to add the growth I realize as an artist from my experience creating the sculpture Month piece to my future Lawndale installation. 

I am grateful for the opportunity to work with all of you and know this is going to be an amazing experience. 

This is Will’s cooking from the garden video

https://youtu.be/tWDLXyN1jj0

Best,

Cindee

It will be groundbreaking to look at sculpture in a landscape unique to Houston Texas. .  

Endangered Knowledge: The Soul of Humus - #2 A closer look at the materials I have so far.

I am in love with these textures and I can hardly wait to incorporate them into my Endangered Knowledge piece. I do need to figure out how to fade the green out. I do not want a green bison. I think the answer is sunlight.